It all happened a year ago when emptiness wasn’t the best description for my situation. I don’t know how it started and what on earth drove me right into that dilemma, but I travelled far into it until I reach the point that says ‘NO GO THROUGH.’ Where you turn left, right and centre but no way out. You just got stuck and can’t find a way out. Held in the midst of nowhere trying to understand how in the world you got there.
At times you feel like walking away, but you’re still stuck. Then you realise that you need help but seems like there’s no one to reach out. You begin to doubt why God hasn’t taken you out of that place when you’ve already prayed to Him about it.
So I sat in that office at my desk almost bursting into tears. I looked around, but no one could understand me. I felt like an imposture in their midst. Am I supposed to be here? I asked myself. But I got no answer. I felt like shouting the question to God but am in an office environment, and people would have thought something is wrong with me or I’ve gone insane. Sometimes you go through seasons like this when you feel like screaming and shouting your heart out to God, but the situation or circumstances around you may not permit you to do so. What do you do then? Just keep quiet, bottle it in and accept defeat judging yourself to be a loser? Or do you fight with persistent faith knowing and believing that there is a God who cares about you no matter where you are or find yourself, He will never leave you and that He is right there with you in the midst of that situation?
Have you ever felt empty? I mean real empty to the point you think you’re going to run dry. You search and do everything you know how to do, but just can’t find that missing puzzle. Trying to find the very thing to satisfy that gap can be challenging.
Some time ago I questioned myself “do I know what God wants from me in my NOW Season? What am I doing here? What is He saying? Or has He become silent? I cannot hear Him.” Felt lost and didn’t seem to know the way out. Anyone going through this now, or has gone through this experience before? Well, I’ve got good news for you, God can bring you out from whatever situation you find yourself. In my case, I thought the emptiness was never going to end, it was long and lonely. No one could help me but God. And He did. Now I look back and thank God for allowing me to go through those moments, those situations that almost crash me. It wasn’t pleasant then, but it was worth the voyage. I discovered some great life lessons and experiences during that dry season of my life. I felt He emptied me to fill me up again. The season was breaking me, invading my every space. But I am a better person today.
So hang on there, whether it looks like a thin rescue rope hanging in the air with your grip on it, remember He will never leave you nor forsake you. Psalms 91:11-12 ‘For He will command His angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways; they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone.’
Are you experiencing a dry season in your life? It may be God emptying out everything that’s not like Him in you.
He’s emptying you to fill you up again. Rain day is coming soon, and He will flood your life with so much of Him, that will cause you to overflow for the rest of your life. So allow Him to finish His work because the result will be worth the current pain.
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